dark swiss chocolate

as the what the girl i'll be talking about today says "sup ketsup?". Normally I would just say things that are really non sense or whatever that comes in mind but only for this entry and might even be a start of a revolution in my writing life, i'll be talking about someone, well of course am straight so this someone is a She(but really unknown physiologically. lol)

and so it was sometime in last quarter last year when She "publicly" provoke anyone to be her date or something thru facebook, and of course the typical Man I am, I dive into the offer with no hesitation, since that time I really don't have anyone to tell things to, then it began, our talks were usually our own interest, what we think of stuffs we see, current events, baking, medical stuff which I, for some reason know a little of some of it, and etc., in short we talked about a lot of things, it was typical textmate routine but with out the m.u.(malabong usapan) thing going on. Then text became cookies and muffin supplier, then became movie partner and so on and so forth. So in a not so short amount time we became close friends (although I would say something more and a bit less but that would just make it confusing but real). She didn't really care if I would be as nice or hospitable as her if not more than her, all she care was that she make a difference in all that has happen, you see before her was a typhoon and an earthquake all at the same time, so somehow She rehabilitated all those cracks, cavities and damages that were done(intentionally or unintentionally). 

She is sweet at some or most points, caring, not a typical girl who need to face the mirror every 10mins to fix something or put on something, can be deep or shallow depending on the flow of the conversation, easy to please, simple although sometimes i think She's a punk for wearing Keds(wahahahaha), She can withstand most girls consider taboo, honestly I'm out of words to describe or tell you things about Her, it's like fitting two uniquely different palms perfectly, you see and feel it fits perfectly but you you can't seem to understand why.

So probably this would be a thank you for Her, thanks for the nights you kept me busy and talking, thank you for the lovely cookies you oh so love to give me, thank for ride that I you seem to have not enjoyed(debatable. lol) and lastly thank you for publicly provoking someone to date you. haha. i hope all shall be well, may this grow into something God wants it to be, may we grow holistically and may we have a longer road to travel.

God bless us both.

Venice' Birthday!!!

so on May 26, 2011 my super energetic, witty, smart, shy and loving daughter will have her 2nd birthday, still i don't have any plans yet for her birthday, a Jollibee party is on the list, another is a simple house party or maybe just a swimming party, since she likes it in the pool(ironic though she doesn't really like taking a bath.. haha). Now on the financial side of party, I still am on the verged of saving money for it at the same time spending money on some other things(wants) not necessities, also we'll be leaving the country soon and i still haven't bought some Euros, it is 62.30 now, then a little bit later(just right after i got my money for buying) it's going to be 62.70, crazy right. i don't know how much i'll spend outside the country, how much pasalubongs i'd buy, how many clothes for me and Venice'. sometimes having the luxury of having more than enough is really not so luxurious especially when you are consumed by the commodity. anyway, back to the story, so maybe a little bit of everything will do, and little more savings will help the party. I would like to give her a Jollibee party because i for one did not have one.. haha.. her first birthday party good, but not so great, got really drunk that time, had too much champagne and i don't know why i even decided to finish all 5 bottles of it, very irresponsible and immature of me. that part is the one i regret up to now, i don't know if most of the guest knew i was half drunk the whole time. this time i'll make it right, will just get tipsy.................            not!!!!!!!!!! lol.. reminds me of Clyde's impersonation of Borat. his impersonation was not the funny part, his effort to it was the funny one.. haha. May 26 will be another of many happy years with my daughter.(if you're wondering why am not mentioning the mom of my child, go figure! haha) i wish Venice a Happy Happy Birthday.. I always pray that may she be have fear of the Lord, that she'd be a model citizen, and have a happy life..

07-14-88

I never really realized

how much you meant to me

until we have become miles apart

It is only now I've come to realize

how every moment with you is special

Every word uttered

Every touch of your hand

Every loving embrace

Becomes a good memory in retrospect

I've lost count on how many times

we fought of our differences

or I cried because I rebel

or simply because I failed you

Our relationship may have grown over the years

Withstood a lot of storms

Tested by time and circumstances

There may be only one thing I am certain of

That even beyond your last breath

Or even beyond mine

I will forever be grateful to the Man above

That He sent you to me

Advance Happy Birthday, Love.

I love you.

--you may find this exact poem in another website, although i changed the 'mommy' to 'love' i just am envious how this person can write so well. hehe. 

who wants to be relevant?

first of all the question is to broad.. so let me narrow it down.. who wants to be relevant to world, meaning one tweet can make or break someone or something, tons of fans at the same time haters, living like a celebrity that makes everything you do, say or look is magnified and lots more..
am now about to finish reading Francis Kong's "Only the Real Matters" it's an inspirational Christian book(YES am Christian c;). Reading the book made me realize that Money, Power and Fame can yes make you but most certainly DESTROY you. The book also speaks about having Christ in your life for you to be genuinely happy (debatable), complete (debatable), and storm proof (debatable). So going back to the topic in relation with the book I mentioned, if you want to be relevant, in what aspect would you want to be relevant? Money, fame or power? Next question is, knowing the trend(George Eastman, Elvis Presley, and Paul Getty) all of them having money, fame and power then committing suicide or just plain ruining their life, would you still want to be like them?
So now you might ask what if you are a Christian and you have all of the three elements, and also you are relevant to the world, would you be next to kin with those three men above? My answer base on my not so meticulous observation, no Christian figure is super relevant to the world, or even to a country. Here in the Philippines you may say that we have Bro. Eddie, Bro. Velarde and of course my favorite Bro. Ed Lapiz, but exactly how relevant are they? I don't think they can mass up to the level of Willie Revillame, Cris Aquino or even just one Tulfo men.
What makes the Born Again Christian off to most of the people or the masses? Why do people tend to be in another religion but do not follow the system or the people in the system, Carlos Celdran said that this question is childish, and bitter oh and naive, well, as what my parents thought me, if you think you can cook better, go then and cook it your self, if you all you'll do is protest and talk out loud about it, why don't just go to another chef? I know, my points are weak, but trust me, vocally I can some how defend it or relay it much better. haha.(challenges for debate would require beers and a dictionary for the Conyo's and Amboys). Again, i went off topic. tsktsk. I hope am not digging my own grave here. anyway, Relevance, do you really really want it? Can you handle it? And lastly Can you be Relevant by having Christ as your center? ( i think you can't{just a thought though}).

status/shoutOut/statement

well, often times i wonder if all of those who post status or give shoutouts or just plain telling a statement really reach their target person/audience.
i for one experienced not having a reaction or a feed back even after relating my concerns directly to the person i am dealing with, so how effective does a status/shoutOut/statement is?
yes, everyone that you allowed to have a glimpse of your golden idea will be able to read, but, is the S/S/S intended for them? yeah, it'll create a buzz for some time if it is really interesting or states a general truth or common interest, but will it be enough to lure the target person/audience?
some times, for me having the s/s/s is just a way of letting some steam off, not all the time you want to pour your anger, hatred, frustrations and all that stuff to some one or any one.
ok, i'm again out of the path to the point i want to make.. lol..
the question is, how do you tell someone or people something when really, they don't know how to respond or they are just plain insensitive w/ you concerns(this really goes both ways).
word of advice, if you want an immediate response, tag the person together with their friends, that way each friend will feel obligated to let the main person know you are making a point.. BITTER!!! haha

writter or just plain dreamer?

list of my problems at writing something:

1. Putting all my thoughts into writing.

2. My basic subject verb agreement.

3. usage of their/there, to/too, and some of their kinds, well all I know is those are homonyms.

4. I don't review what I type.

5. i think i have ADHD, so every time am writing something after a few sentences i forget the next lines.

6. i don't know how to focus on one reader that's why all that I right are like chopsuey(mixed vegs)

7. what i think is interesting would turn out boring after i put them into writing.

8. lastly, i don't want others to read my writing in front of me, because I don't really know how to accept criticism.

So now am trying to right every time i can, just to fulfill one of things that I failed to be good or even just be decent at.. 

Essential things in a Hospital Room(suite class)

here are, for me the essential things that should be free or available to a Hospital room.

1. Wi-Fi

2. Free Food(chips, water, cookies, and some other things for the guarding relative)

3. A 24 hour room service.

4. Wireless Head Phones for the TV.

5. High quality, if not Branded Toiletries.

last but not the least

6. dimming lights and separate switch for all the lights.

Yes! i know, it should like be a Hotel room, except it's a recovery Hotel room..